and I’m still waiting…

most people would say, “good things come to those who wait”, but you know what? screw that! Friday is a long wait! I NEED the result now! I don’t care if its good or bad. I wanna know so badly… Stupid technology >.>

oh yeah, this has got nothing to do with family, friends or love. This is about my future – I’m anxious yet I’m pretty scared. Ya Allah, please give me strength D:

bricks and candy

Where should I start? Hmmm…

Let’s say you’re building a mansion, or a house for instance, and with your very splendid IQ, now you’re trying to relate what I’ve just mentioned with the title of the post. What is the relation between a house and bricks?

Of course! Bricks are the building blocks of a house, or in other words, they are the very foundation and essential in order to build a strong and safe house, fitting its purpose. No, I’m not teaching you how to build a house today because I am no architect and I don’t have any knowledge about building a house. However, I do want to ramble about building a spiritual house – a moment when you feel safe and cozy, as if you’re at home. Very closely related to what I’m about to mention is family but due to your very intelligent mind which could co-relates everything, I’ll just omit the family part because just by the presence of family members (in most cases), you’ll feel comfortable in such a way that you’re blood related and somehow had developed mutual understandings ever since you were born or little.

So now let’s move on to the other part of the title, which is candy. And again your brain would automatically think of the taste – sweet whenever you see or hear the word candy. Let’s just stick to that. Now, close your eyes and try to imagine something else, which isn’t edible but taste as sweet as a candy could be. I’ll just leave that to your imagination. While most people would be having a hard time thinking, what people do not realise is that what you taste with your taste buds are not really that important. It is what you taste with your heart is more crucial. So again, I’ll let you think for awhile, what might be sweet to your heart? Love perhaps? Sure anything else? Just keep on thinking while reading the rest of the post.

Some of you might just be curious what really happened to me, from ramblings and rants, all of the sudden my writing has changed to something a lil bit more intellectual. No don’t worry, nothing happened – it is just that some events that occurred around me lately triggers me to write something about it.

Back to the topic, let’s play a game! I’ve shown you two pictures above, a picture of bricks and the other one is  a picture of some candy canes. Using  your creative mind, try to think of something that has both element, a building block of something safe and strong, yet it tastes sweet to the heart. Could it be a house made of candies? Or could it be a candy cane shaped ornament made of bricks? Sure! It could be anything, just let your imagination soar. However for me, the answer is YOU! Yeah, a human being, a person, or a group of people – depending on the situation. Wanna know why? Just keep on reading and you;ll gradually understand.

Since I’ve mentioned to you about human, let’s now move on to this particular topic. What is the most important thing that appears in your mind when I say two human beings, facing each other, or anyway you like to imagine it – as long as it involves 2 person. If I were you my answer would be communication. Oh wait… It seems that this blog post is starting to sound like one of my lectures in the faculty… Darn it! Haha, who cares anyway~ a very common method of communicating, I believe is through speech, or talk, or some people call it conversation. In order to create a conversation, there must be something to talk about. Like this post, there must be a topic to discuss.

Ahhh, this is getting stupid… I’ll just go straight to the point (which could’ve been done 500 words earlier), I wanna talk or discuss about friendship. Before discussing the details of it, I would love to ask, how’s your friends? Do you know what are they doing now? Do you even care what they are doing? Are you even concern of what might be happening to them, or what stuck into their minds right now? How dare you call yourself a friend?

How do people start becoming friends? A conversation is a decent way to start making friends, I mean, I’m sure you would want to know the background of a person that you’re talking to. Let’s say you’re talking to a friend. What would the topic be? Usually it would be something in common between that 2 people, a topic of interest. If your topic of interest towards someone is strictly placed, what I mean is that for example, whenever you talk with Benny, it would be about studies and whenever you have financial problems, you would talk with Jimmy, well you can make up the rest, I’m pretty sure you get what I’m trying to deliver. For some people, they are saying that topic of interest held the connection between two person, but would that connection be friendship? So what is friendship?

Theres a lot more quotes from that twitter user, you can check it out by yourself later, so summing that thing up, it would roughly be like, friendship is the connection between people which develops mutual understanding, comforting his or her friend when in need, and provide aid or guide to his or her problems.

So how would it be possible, for people who had developed mutual understanding, almost be apart of each other, be in a conflict? Common among kids, they would usually say “sik mok geng gik” or something like that if they feel threatened if I may say. Maybe because we’re sooo used to it, we’re starting to let it rule over us. Let petty things sinks the ship.

Honestly, I have no idea what am I saying… Nevertheless, here’s a note to myself and friends, be concern about your friends, really know your friends before calling them your friends, be apart of each other, no one is really perfect, your friends are the complements of your life, share – may it be food, experience, laugher, or tears; prevent them from doing stupid things, remind them of how precious they are to you. Your friends might not be the best of his/her kind, but remember you can always improve that, lay low, speak up and the most important thing is, be yourself.

You know yourself more than I do, if you don’t think that I’m a friend then let me know, at least I can find another, might not be a good as you but at least I can find someone who understands.

Good times : watching movies together, eat together, laugh together, play together.
Bad times: I don’t give a shit if you’re sick or dying.

Towards the end, it is getting really personal. My bad. Haha!

next?

It is not like anyones gonna read this blog anyway but since a friend asked me to update, so why not? I’ve noticed that I had been posting in BMS (Bahasa Melayu Sarawak) lately and maybe because of that, the amount of visitors this blog started to plunge badly… (not like it matters or something, just that… you knoww… *this supposed to be funny to some people but I guess those people don’t read my blog*) Supposedly, I should be posting about what happened last year, both good and bad things. Okay, here we go… I wonder where to start…

For those who really know me, they would know I don’t really have a good memory. I even have a sleeping journal just to keep track of my dreams. So again, where shall I start? :s Hmmm, overall 2011 was great I guess. It was filled with holidays and there isn’t much to be described. I didn’t travel much, went back to KL around June after or was it before MAP for the second batch? Oh wait! Second semester of pre u was in 2011. We went to Niah last year too…

Lets just start with second semester. To be frank, it was great in terms of academically and socially. I made friends with people I don’t really talk to in the first semester, I got good results apart from getting C+ for my chemistry for mid semester. Other than that, it was splendid. I don’t really want to explain the details because they are pretty much dull and boring for some people.

Back in KL, spent some time mingling around malls and such. Not to mention, our house there was a bit hectic maybe because it was abandoned for quite some time. Blah blah blah…

MAP for asasi second batch was great! Apart from not getting enough sleep, I sure did learn a lot and make more friends, learn how to lead and assist, etc. Juniors was great too, especially those in my group! Although I don’t really keep in touch with most of them because you know… I’m quite busy (yeah right… >.>) and I don’t think they’re that comfortable with someone a year older than them. Just a stupid assumption anyway. haha

Not to forget, I was vegetarian for half a year and just for your information, it wasn’t that bad. In fact, the rate of me getting sick when I was a vegetarian was lower than at time when I’m not. A big thank you, hugs and kisses to my mum for supporting me by cooking great vegetarian food, she even bought some new recipe books just for me. <3

Well roughly after that, I’m finally an undergrad student! Booyahh! Sounds interesting at first but then its sure is tough… Honestly, I was never really ready to become a medical student. For those who know me, you wouldve known that apart from lazy, I don’t fancy books that much. Good thing theres this boy with gigi besi somehow motivates me to study since hes a big N and know a lot guy. Lets just say hes a part of me which does not exist. haha.

Since 2011 had come to an end, I personally would like to thank everyone for blossoming each and every day of my life in 2011. Toobad most of my friends are studying at the main campus while some others yang bukan di UNIMAS (yeah I wouldn’t forget you), I don’t get to see them much these days but believe me, you guys are awesome! Lotsalove from me and for those whom I’ll me staring and glaring for the next 4 years, please bear with me, you should know I’m VERY outspoken at times so jangan terkecil hati.

Message to the world, please don’t end this year. I have lots of stuff to do. Thank you.